1-19-2002 | 4:13 a.m.

Yeah, I'm here. Kind of got way off track for a while. Don't really want to dicuss in details right now. Too tired.

It's just so weird. When I do find my way home, I'm all set to do a million projects and have tons of ideas. And I want to have everything happen immediately. But when I'm in all that craziness, I can't do anything. My brain just doesn't function. But I do need to write about the past few months, just not right now. I need to reflect a bit and then try to get the words out in a semi-coherent way.

So, yeah, mania is at a peak. I'm all set to get this Diary Survivor 3 contest underway. Should happen within the next few weeks. The applications are being read and the contestants should be chosen within the next week. I really wany this to happen, and I'm lucky to have a bunch of amazing people helping me out. To everyone who entered, sorry for the delay. The contest will take place, I promise. In need to be involved in something constructive.

And I will open up about the goings on of the past few months. I just need time. But yeah, just wanted to notify that I am still alive. And I appreciate the concern shown - sorry to worry anyone. But I will get more into the emotional stuff in a day or two. And yeah, I need to vent about "Survivor: Africa" - Lex was robbed!

But yeah, I'm pretty stable and doing the best I can to remain that way.

Take care,
Meg