6-12-2002 | 1:09 a.m.

Cut back to 10 mg. of Celexa. I'm sick of taking meds that make me all fake-happy and sweet. I feel like I'm in some damn tv movie.

Had the endoscopy, aka camera down the throat into stomach deal. My esophagus is damaged from years of drinking and self-induced vomiting. More meds to see if I can heal without surgery. And I am supposed to eat more. And cut down on stress. And start therapy again. Yeah right, so I can let someone lock me up again?

Xanax, trying to cut down. I am an uber-bitch lately. Too bad.

This is useless. I can't express my feelings or relay the crappy goings on in my life. So just take care.