2-1-2002 | 3:14 a.m.

I just needed to share this blurb from "Rolling Stone" that amused me:

Stray Cat Blues:
Moby hit the emergency room after getting chomped by an alley cat he tried to pet in New York's Chinatown. After pain, swelling, a tetanus shot and antibiotics, he's recuperating as a sadder but wiser Moby. "Although I'm still a vegan," he vowed on his Web site, "I will definitely eat this cat if I see it again."

Anyway, Wednesday was the first night I didn't take Xanax for my relax/sleep inducing need. My eyes were pretty blood shot today though. But last night I took it because with everything going on, I don't think I need withdrawal symptoms.

I'm now more pissed than upset about this whole neurologist deal. It's been two days since I've heard from his office regarding an appointment. I understand that he's going on leave soon, and really is trying to find a time he can see me. However, no one will tell me what's going on - what is causing the tremors and major headaches everyday. My MD's office wants to know right away when I have the appointment with the neurologist, so they can send my secret files over. Damn, sometimes I want to grab my file when the doc leaves the room so I can see what he's written about my health. So, I keep hearing that this is an urgent health matter, but I'm sitting here waiting and wondering. I just want to know what the problem is anyway. Can't Doc just give me an idea of what he suspects? And what exactly is the neurologist going to do? An MRI? I think he'll be out of town before the results would come in. Can he tell what the problem is through a standard examination?

So, I'm pissed and someone is going to hear about it tomorrow. This waiting is bullshit. I don't sleep much as it is, but with all these crazy things on my mind, I'm only getting between 3-4 hours a night. And then I'm all cranky and walk into walls.

But anyway, I just had to post that Moby info. I didn't mean to whine. I will now drink my grape juice and attempt sleep. Some evil cat is meowing in my ear, because it's freezing here (damn snow & ice) tonight so he wants to curl up under the blankies with me.

And I have to so thanks to everyone who has left comments/info and support notes and emails. You've been helpful, calming and sweet. It means a lot to me.