6-21-2001 | 2:47 a.m.

I like pop tarts. The apple or blueberry frosted ones. Yes I do. Do I write about the past few 'absent' months? Not sure if I'm ready to do that. Or maybe it's better to move on and leave it buried. I don't see a psychologist anymore. All she did was piss me off. So I'm getting my meds from my MD. The Wellbutrin seems to be keeping me somewhat stable. But the Xanax. Am I an addict if I take the prescribed amount? Well, at one time instead of 3 x a day. It's the only way I can sleep. I've tried everything else. Sleeping pills don't even help. The fact that I can't sleep without it should tell me something. But at the moment I'm not drinking so it should be alright for now.

I really should get some sleep. I need to take the Xanax earlier so I'll have more hours of sleep.

And....there's a new 'Stone Temple Pilots' CD out! Scotty Weiland. That voice just gets to me. I have to get it, the CD that is. I wish I could get Weiland. mmmmmmm.