4-23-2002 | 6:56 p.m.

All that talk about drugs led to another strange dream last night:

[Start dream sequence---Russ (of the notebook full o Meg inspired song lyrics) was directing a movie based on my life.

Location: St. Vincent’s Hospital, Drug/Alcohol abuse outpatient department, office of Meg’s drug counselor – Dave

Casting: The role of Meg will be played by Meg. The role of Dave (counselor) will be played by Jeff Probst. Everyone else – "as themselves"

Scene: After a random drug test, alcohol and narcotics are found in Meg’s blood sample. Dave leans forward and sighs, arms resting on his desk. Meg stares at the ceiling.

Dave: "Mixing codeine with alcohol is suicidal behavior."

Meg: "Well, I didn’t know that..."

Dave: "You need to put forth some serious effort in your recovery."

Meg: "Maybe I don’t want to stop. I’m not here by choice you know."

Russ: "CUT! Meg, could you please stop making googly eyes at Jeff. Stay in character please." He climbs back onto his chair – which looks like a lifeguard station. Meg blushes and Jeff Probst smiles. "And action!"

Cameras roll:
Dave: "You leave me no choice, Meg. I hate to do this to you, but I don’t want to see you OD. I haven’t lost any patients yet..."

Meg looks at the door and stands up.

Fancy Pants Psych doc waltzes in: "Meg you need to come with me."

Meg: "No! You can’t force me."

Dave looks as if he might cry: "We have 2 doctors’ signatures. I’m sorry Meg."

Evil psych doc: "Please don’t make me call security."

Dave and psych doc stand on either side of Meg. Other patients stand in the hall, watching.

Chris (drug-induced psychosis boy): "Don’t let them brainwash you!"

Glenn (friend of Abe Lincoln and Satan): "I’ll kick your ass Dave!" Glenn is escorted out of the building.

Meg is taken to the hospital’s inpatient rehab ward. The doors lock behind her. "I’m not a drug addict! I’m not an alcoholic! AA is a cult. Don’t leave me here. I’d rather be on the psych ward."

Russ: "And cut. Print. Good work Sparky!"

Meg: "Don’t call me that."

Jeff Probst: "Can I get a Sierra Mist please?"---End dream sequence.]

Scary huh? Jeff Probst makes his first appearance in my dreams. I can’t even find peace while asleep. Always with the elaborate dreams which I remember every detail of. I'll admit, it was amusing reliving that event with Jeff Probst filling in for Dave.

I’ll write about my week-end with Michelle and her guy (I hate the phrase fiancee) later or tomorrow. Amazing week-end.