2-14-2001 |

So my buddy Chris and I had a little 'un-Valentine' evening. Instead of getting drunk and sharing relationship horror stories (like last year) we watched "Fight Club" for the 12th time, goofed around on the Ouija board and ate some pizza. Upon arrival Chris handed me a heart shaped box containing those yummy and cute Necco candy hearts. Awwwwww! Very sweet. Weird messages on them now, huh? I remember when they just said stuff like, "Kiss me" and "Be Mine" and crap.

I finally called my doctor about the meds. He lowered the dosage from 75 mg. to 25 mg. Big change huh? And then he'll re-evaluate me in 2 weeks and possibly raise the dosage to 50 mg. - unless the side effects return. So, I'm feeling okay. My hands are still numb at times and I really haven't seen any benefits from the pills, but it'll take time I'm sure. So instead of being a zombie I'm semi-manic again. No biggie. I have to give this a try.

Weird message on my machine tonight. A male voice said 'hello' a few times and then, "Meg...I can hear you.." and hung up. I couldn't recognize the voice because the person was whispering. Kind of freaky. I'm sure someones just playing with me, but I closed the shutters before I went to bed anyway. Really helps the paranoia, I tell ya. Only freaked me out a little though.

I'm getting sleepy. I have more to say, so I'll write another entry tomorrow. If my body sends me the signals that it's tired I better jump into bed. It's rare that I can fall asleep this early!